Just Friends

Can we just be friends? is the same as saying the dog died but can we keep it. I still look at him and get that feeling in my stomach, I feel the love. We either are in love, or we completley hate each other. It has been a casual fling for a whgile now, he doesn't want commitment but truthfully I don't think I do either. I love it when we're together. He makes me feel free and alive. We bring the best out in each other. But this time when he saud those dreaded words, I said no. Sorry, I can't. I think the only way to get rid of my feelings for you is to avoid you and forget about you, you obviously threw your feelings towards me away quickly but i can't. I like you a hell of alot. but you are not boyfriend material. I can't think why I like you so much, I just do. Is is a crime not to have a valid reason for having unstoppable feelings towards a man? I don't know. I don't want to loose him but how can you get over someone whne they want to be your best mate?! usually things sort themselves out, I must have told him 'Bye forever' too many times. We argue like a married couple, we hang around like young lovers, yet he has never admitted feelings for me. My friends don't understand how much he means to me. I feel lost now that I stopped texting him, but it's for the best. well thats what I keep telling myself.